Silent Words Series: Entry No. 4

Entry no. 4

September 4, 2017 2:24 PM

“I couldn’t shake this feeling I have lately. I feel like I am a star about to explode indefinitely. I feel happy for no reason, like I have everything I needed or that things are going my way, but actually, it isn’t. I feel like I want to explore, hike by myself, have an adventure with my cat, to experience something new. Something different. And then again, I feel sad and lonely because I’m longing for someone to love or a friend I can talk to. I feel stuck, and I don’t know where to go or where to plant my feet. I feel tired of all the things I am doing that prevents me from doing what I should really need to do. I feel peace at times when I do the things that matter most to me. I have so many dreams, and I have this thing that I want to be everything at once, but I can’t. I feel so scared of taking a risk or of change, but I know, and I am aware that I need to do it to be happy. I constantly look at people and how lucky and happy they are, but the truth is I’ll never know because people don’t reveal their true self. People somehow don’t want to be vulnerable. And all of these feelings I gather them together and shine bright like the stars in a clear night sky, about to explode somehow.”

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